When I discovered I’d made a mess of nearly every aspect of my life I was forced to look inward. As I looked inward, I realized He was looking outward, waiting on me. Why? Because He is the answer to the mess I created.
To be honest it’s not the first time I’ve made a mess of my life. In my mid-twenties I got myself in pretty deep with drugs. I went to a place I had felt holiness in the woods, we lived in Trinity County. My dad moved us from Los Angeles, he wanted to get his family away from where they were doing drugs. Ya, he was unaware that Trinity County was where they were making them. But I digress.
My parents had recently divorced, and my dad had moved out, He was now in Hawaii, (he was born and raised there). This divorce was one of the catalysts to my drug use. As I’m sitting in this picturesque creek in the deep woods, I have a realization. I’m gonna die If I keep this up. Fear and dread came over me and I realized I needed help. I cried out in prayer and told God, “I’m gonna die, I don’t know what to do.” I was not a Christian; I had been to church maybe ten times in my life. But God had plans for me. I walked back to the house and as I walked in the phone rang. It was my dad, he says, ” I don’t know what’s going on there but you’re leaving right now. Get a ride to the airport. I will have a ticket waiting for you when you get there.” “What?” I speak. He tells me he just had this horrible feeling I was in danger, and I needed to be with him. I get to Hawaii and God holds me to a bed and I detox from my crappy decisions.
A few years later I was struggling with what I can only describe as depression. I was very successful, a maritime officer on large tugboats and outwardly living the high life. But I was miserable. My purpose was what? I found a book that looked interesting. I grabbed it and opened it. The title of the chapter I opened it too was, “The Power of Holiness.” To summarize the first paragraph. You have denied your true purpose, and you hate your life. Want change? Pray for guidance, ask for help, and I will help you. The answer is Me love Jesus. What the heck? So, I start talking to Him. So much changed, miracles happened but the biggest change was I was not alone. I did not go to church, I did not say the words, I just knew He was with me. I never changed my profession or anything, but I was, happier. I discovered my purpose was relationship with Him.
For more of my crappy decisions that led to His direct intervention in my life read the post, Ezekiel-36;26
So, my point is this. You don’t have to make a drastic change in your life to change your circumstances. Invite Him in and let Him smile with you. He is the drastic change. He loves you and you matter to Him. Take that little step to admit life is not what you want it to be. It’s not what you need it to be. It’s not what you thought it would be. The vision you have for yourself is but a shadow of what He has to offer. The baby steps lead to more and more. I am now here writing of all He has done. That would not have happened without the breadcrumbs he laid in my path that led me to, “the power of Holiness.”
Behold I Saw 